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I feel out of place.

I suddenly don't see things the same way anymore like the people and things I love.

I'm feeling a little guilty for not going on LJ anymore.

But Facebook, Deviantart, and Tumblr has taken over my heart.

From being in between three options I'm down to none, relationships are a bit tricky.

Graduation is coming up.  I'm still having mixed feelings on how I feel about leaving high school.
I mean, I can finally rid myself of all the immature children I see day to day.  But on the other hand, I don't feel like an adult in any way or form.

The smartest kid in school (not kidding) gave me a definite self-esteem boost by calling me a "literary wonder" because I read abnormally long classics that came from the 19th century.

 "She" and I are not talking anymore.  We know how we feel about each other, but I think she finally knows just like how I know that it's too late.

I'm still grounded.  My phone's been disconnected by mi madre.

Blah.  I'm done for the day.
 

I'm growing pretty fond of Adrian. :]

When I'm around this boy, I just don't think about the depressing things in my life and how hurt I was from my last relationship.  I'm so surprised by how giddy I feel when he calls.

I dedicate my not so great cover of "First Day of My Life" by Bright Eyes to him.

I might be presenting the movie to the class tomorrow.  I'm so relieved that it's over but at the same time I really loved writing that screenplay, I loved directing it, and I loved editing it, too.  Film making was stressful but in hindsight I had a lot of fun.  I had a reliable production crew to thank as well.  They were really supportive of my ideas, and vice versa.

I'm still wondering if I should drop everything and just go to an art school.  I just don't think my parents are willing to pay for it though, but man, what an exciting experience it would be.  I could probably sculpt and design all day long.

I don't even mind the idea of being poor.  The streets always seemed exciting to me.  I know that sounds horrible but I can't stand the idea of living an empty life.

My mom wants me to be an accountant.  It sounds too safe.  Empty.

I'm failing math now.  Some Asian I am, I forgot all about y=mx+b.  That's the core of math, too.

I think after this weekend I'm going to chill out and put my social life on hold. 

And I'll desperately clutch, with the hands of life, onto my GPA.  Wish me luck.

((Someone asked me out on a date!))      :O

Today was such a fun day, hanging with peeps and all that.

Too tired to really elaborate.  Shit went down.  I promise.

I'm almost done with my Literature to Film project!  Talent show is coming up.  Life is good.
Now someone just needs to take out my parents.

Haha, don't.  I still need financial providers.
 

-Ahem.  I had a wild day yesterday hunting down for props for "The Tell-Tale Heart" with my friends.  We eventually had to split up in two different cars for the best results.  It took us three hours to find them all, and twenty minutes to do the actual scenes.

-I need to get my love life straight.  Him?  Her?  Them?  Which one? -shrugs-

-I haven't started on this giant project yet, and it's due on Monday.

There's more but to be honest, I just really want to get going and play Dead Frontier.  It's an online zombie game.


I'm a nerd.  I know this.
 

Events of today, so far:

-My dad came into my room to wake me up and I shouldn't have felt creeped out but I did. 
-Natasha called and we spent hours talking.
-While THAT was happening, I was watching Maury and Jerry Springer with my brother.
-I've been myspacing, it seems like that's all I've done this week.
-I'm contemplating why, just why did I make a LJ.
-I'm also deciding whether or not be an online creep and make some random friends.


Hey, I make random friends at the mall so this shouldn't be so bad.

Praise Jesus, this is my first entry and I'm babbling.

I'm so blank, I swear.  It's one of the reasons why I didn't want to make a LiveJournal.  Everyone that's on it has something to say.  I'm just another kid.  I'm like everyone else, I'm a cliche.   Seriously, man, what kid isn't into music and art these days?
I suppose I could use my LJ to show off my insane music snobbery.
Maybe I'll pop some lame Asian jokes and whine about my life and how it's pulling a Jack-Down-The-Hill.